i've been so busy i haven got time to blog and i apologize about it. i've got tons of things weighin on my mind now.

i got my results in feb and i failed my c.sci and POA.
english - 3
maths - 3
chinese - 2
c.humans - 6
c.science - 7
POA - 9

failing my sci meant that i couldnt enter any polys bcuz most courses require 5 o level passes and i can only manage to pass 4. i applied for JAE(joint admission exercise) and oso the DAE(direct admission exercise), writing letters and such for ben and myself. at first, i was only worried bout ben not being able to enter a poly bcuz the courses offered to me even though i didnt like em, (all IT courses) i didnt mind. all that matters to me was he can enter any poly or course. working from mon to sat, he wouldnt even have time to apply for anything, much less to see if anything's to his liking. he didnt have much choice. but now, it seems to me that even for me, i couldnt enter poly as wad i expected. i was complacent. all the courses offered to me, for some reason i couldnt get in. i was devastated when i received my JAE letter. i broke down in tears at home. in the presence of my parents and ben. i couldnt care less. not being able to enter poly does not only affect me but my parents too. how will they think of me? they wouldnt understand even if i bothered to explain. until today, when i spoke to tim on msn, talkin to him makes me feel hopeful and at least if i reallie couldnt get into any poly, i can jus go ITE. den he said 21 points go ITE v wasteful. i couldnt care much. den i told mum and dad. at least they were quite supportive and not blame me. mum said i could apply for AMK ite if i wan. i am reallie glad that they could understand and not blame me for not being able to go poly even though my dad mention something about not studyin hard enough. tml im going to republic poly with yongshu to try my luck. wish me luck ok? i will blog after all these trouble are over with pictures. ^^

friends are angels to guide you when u're lost.