ytd, shixian, darren, zhiwei and i went down to orchard buy swensen's cake to celebrate yongshu's bday. can see she's reallie suprised.. ^^ den after that, took a cab down to dear's hse. early this morning he go work le. all alone at his hse, i feel like im wastin my time away. quite saddening to see everyone else ard me to be workin and im like wastin time away. reach hm ard 5 plus, online. chatted with chonglin and toby. chonglin in NS and toby goin in soon. NS is a killer! was talking to toby bout dance, den everything in the past like come back to me. hais. i never wanted something so badly. but i dun wish to let history repeat itself. i wanna go back to dance, but i dun wan to be the subject of gossip like b4. toby told me that its all in the past, that ive got to move on & dun keep lookin back into the past but im jus afraid of the same thing repeating again. hais.

give me a reason to give up dancing.

im tugging at my hair,
im pulling at my clothes.
im tryin to keep my cool,
i know it shows.
im staring at my feet,
my cheeks are turning red.
im searching for the words inside my head.

cuz im feeling nervous,
tryin to be so perfect,
cuz i know u're worth it,
u're worth it.
yeah.

if i could say wad i wanna say,
i'ld say i wanna blow u.. away.
be with u everynight,
am i squeezing u too tight.
if i could see wad i wanna see,
i wanna see u go down on one knee.
marry me today.
guess im wishing my life away..
with these things i'll never say.

Nickelback - this is how u remind me.
now its 2:30pm and i jus woke up. blah wad a pig.couldnt slp last night. after winning bout 7 bucks from my bro from poker,i tried to slp at 3am. my bro snoring away, i still couldnt slp.puff a few sticks, still couldnt slp.dunno wads wrong. den finally gave up, start to pack my sec sch books.the piles of books-cum-comics beside my bed is finally cleared.i dread to think of clearing my table. >.<>

kristie calledd this morning and woke me up.she forgot to bring the application form benji filled up for me.asked for my particulars and such.it feels great to noe that there's a job waitin for u.(please dont reject my application!)if i got it, i'll be a nurse! haaz!jus bcuz i'll be workin at clinic.*imaging the pay....................lols.i was suppose to wake up at 8 today to company mummy to sumwhr.end up,her naggings and the alarm couldnt wake me up.ate dou jiang you tiao. its been so long since i ate you tiao!should i clean up my room, clean up xiaomao's cat litter or jus waste the time online?i'm jus passing time, waitin for evening. ^^ tml is yongshu's bday!and today, shixian calledd me last night sayin tat today they celebratin yongshu's bday at orchard. cuz she workin at topshop ma.10.30 at orchard. sians.. so much time to spare till 10.30pm..i guess i better go clean up my room b4 my mum goes crazy.(its been messy before o levels begins.) =D
ciaos.

zi lian de wo.. wahahahas..

dawn & i at vivocity. ^^

yes yes once again zi lian de wo..

me & my baobeii xiaoMAO

baby dymien yawning.. ^^

preparin for prom at shixian's hse. ^^

ZI LIAN! =D

my sweetie & i at 85 market. ^^

my last day in school u. ))=

photos we took at prom night..
still got so many others couldnt upload online..
>.<


my darling & mii




















my class de girls.. ^^
















kaihui & ii





















my pretty girls!~















my best of the best pals! ^^















WIB = women in black.. wahahahahs.

o levels over.. i am so glad it's finally over.. 5 yrs of studying makes me mad.. but in another way, it's a way to keep mii protected.. haiz.. have to find work and reallie work hard.. cant play hard like before le.. 5 yrs of "torture", *poof* its over.. come to think of it, i still prefer studying den working.. at least, i didnt have to worry abt havin not enough to spend and such.. i jus have to worry abt the nx destination im heading to have fun.. today's paper lasted only 1 hr, i spent 34 mins on the paper, 5 mins in the toilet, 21 mins tryin to rmb deyi's sch hall.. thinkin back of the memories in that "prison".. tears and laughters.. will reallie miss it. =) now, i cant afford to keep indulgin in my own world, i have to learn to accept the world and move with it.. hell it sucks! +.+ please please let me get a good job, i promise i will not run off after one day! o.o i can only pray for good job, more money and await for my change!~ =D

pray for mii pls!

prom night this friday.. hees.. the day we're waiting for.. but sadly, no matchin heels or handbag.. o.O i should have shopped more this yr.. kristie lent me her dress, the dress i've NEVER EVER dreamt of wearing it.. BUT lols.. i finally got to wear it, summore to the prom. hahas.. so happie.. but kinda weird lehs.. lols.. will update photos soon.. ^o^
im hungry, mummy's cooking smells great.. i intended to go on a hunger strike, (the dress is damn tight-fit) but i think i cant take it even though the strike only lasted 4 hrs.. =x

pray for mii k? hees.

its been a week, so many things has happened.. i dunno how to put it, but im kinda stressed out now.. haiz!


HAO FAN WORS!

reallie hope can see daphy soon. i think i got too many stuffs buggin me le.. need my daphy to share my upsets.. haiz..
o levels is finishing soon.. 2 more papers.. finally started abit on poa, but after doing the paper, i thought that it would have been better if i dun take the paper.. haix.. tml is poa paper 1 and i dun think i have any confidence AT ALL lors! hais..

i though o levels finishin will be a new start, but guess wad, even b4 it ends, it's a start of new problems..

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

mayb im jus not mature enough to handle this kinda things smoothly.. hais..
dad wans me to send xiaomao away.. HAIZ! how the hell would i be able to give her to some1 else? hais..
i dunno why am i so fan.. haiz.. its all my fault right from the beginning.. hais..


life goes on.. hais..

quoted this from the movie cast away ::
i have to keep breathing, tomorrow the sun will still rise.
who knows what the tide might br

so sorrie haven had the time to blog for so long..

busy with o levels, so many things has happened.

i learnt to play counter strike after so long.
o levels is almost finishing.
i almost died studyin through the night.
the nx day i sit for the paper, i realised that,
last min studyin is no good.
got a new phone, new line, new life i hope.
i did many bad things,
and good stuffs at the same time.
i learnt to control,
control my tears.
mayb im too stressed out.
hais.

wish exams will end faster..
tml's maths paper2.
wish me luck. =(

PS: Parry Gala Dinner on 18 Nov, 7-10pm
-Deyi 2006 Prom Night at Yishun Safra 21 Nov, 7pm.